You know what I love? The days where the wind blows the right direction, keeping your hair out of your face. The days a song can describe your whole day perfectly, and even turn it around for the better. And I love the times when you realize, you’re truly not the only person that feels the way you feel.
I’ve been realizing so much lately. All the people who told me, “It will get worse before it gets better,” were right, but so was the person that told me, “You’ll learn so much about yourself, and it will get better. I promise.” I’ve been asking a lot of people about heartache lately, and I’ve been asking them about their situations. And the most popular response is “time heals all.” And like I told Dylan, time seems to handle a lot of life’s responsibilities. And I realize that time really does need to be spent in the most fulfilling ways possible. ”It’s not about the amount of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away.”
Tangent. I’ve had quite a bit of time to think since spring semester ended. And I’ve got one more week until summer semester begins. And I cannot wait. As much as I like having time to relax and analyze things, boredom tends to ensue, and then I get trapped in my own little world. Thankfully, I had the chance to hang out with a lot of my good friends before my focus shifts back to school. I’m really looking forward to working hard and meeting new people, too. Hopefully my hours at work pick up soon, so I can afford a car and tuition this time around. End Tangent. :)
So much has happened the past couple of months, and sometimes I doubt whether or not I’m up for the challenge of pushing forward. Eventually my head and my heart agree and I can keep my head above water. Today was definitely one of those times. I went browsing through home and garden stores with my dad today, looking at flowers and plants. As little of a task that was, I was glad to spend some quality time with him. I don’t really have much of a family these days. But while we were looking around, my mind started to wander, and I began pondering. I’m not the only one who’s heart has been broken. I’m not the only one who’s ever been replaced. I’m not the only one who feels what I feel inside. And most importantly, I’m here, I’m alive, and I need to live my life the way I want to. Negativity has kept me down long enough, and I need to pick myself up, pick up the pieces, and start anew.
People-watching while visiting those stores helped a lot in figuring things out. I tend to wonder what they are going through and what kinds of problems they’ve got to deal with. Another huge influence on my day today was music. I put my iPod on shuffle, which I hardly ever do, and the outcome was awesome. The first song was that of Chase Coy, which made me a bit sad, only to get to the next: “Heartless” by A Day To Remember. All thoughts of sadness were then satisfied with vengeance. And of course, who better to turn my day away from the dark side than The Rocket Summer and Dashboard? They lift my spirits quite a bit. There is really nothing more therapeutic than music.
And now I’m basically rambling.
So to make a long story longer, I’m hoping to become a little ball of sunshine again. There is always a light to be found in the darkness, and I’m going to find it.
And I really did try to stay on one topic on this blog, but— that didn’t really happen, did it? With so much to say, it gets hard to focus on one subject. Hopefully it was relevant enough.